"When witches go riding,
and black cats are seen,
the moon laughs and whispers,
‘tis near Halloween."
~Author Unknown
and black cats are seen,
the moon laughs and whispers,
‘tis near Halloween."
~Author Unknown
Halloween has, since I can remember, been one of my all time favorite holidays. Well, Halloween and Purim. Purim is sorta the Jewish Halloween. For Purim, you dress up, eat cookies (hamentashen) , its good times for sure.
Anyway point being, I loved to dress up an pretend to be someone else. It made me feel safe. I think its part of the reason I decided to go into acting. The idea of being someone else and not having to worry about me was so exciting.
Different was what acting actually was. I found myself diving so completely into the characters that I almost didn't exist anymore. That was my biggest hurdle when I got to college. Everything I was doing was perfect but it lacked reality. Why?
It was because of the fact that I didn't include myself in the characters that I was becoming. When I began acting I never knew that was going to be needed, if I had known perhaps I would have backed away-from the thing that changed my life. I slowly had to dive into finding me and adding me into my work.
At first it was very difficult. I felt like my reactions to things weren't right, therefore i didn't want to show people. I was completely wrong, my quirkiness, and totally off the wall way of looking at things made me desirable to the entertainment industry.
To this day I am still adding more "me" into my "character" that I face the world with. I am proud where I am as well. Acting taught me to read others emotions and react to others emotions. Without it I wouldn't be as in tune with others and myself the way I am today. And I would have a much harder time, starting and mantaining friendships and relationships.
The world has lead me in very interesting directions, but as I get older I see that they all have a purpose. My life is just as fruitful as others, I just think about it differently. I live my life as a constant Halloween. If I am worried about being uncomfortable I dress the part of someone who is confident and sexy and I play that part all night/day.
At first it was very difficult. I felt like my reactions to things weren't right, therefore i didn't want to show people. I was completely wrong, my quirkiness, and totally off the wall way of looking at things made me desirable to the entertainment industry.
To this day I am still adding more "me" into my "character" that I face the world with. I am proud where I am as well. Acting taught me to read others emotions and react to others emotions. Without it I wouldn't be as in tune with others and myself the way I am today. And I would have a much harder time, starting and mantaining friendships and relationships.
The world has lead me in very interesting directions, but as I get older I see that they all have a purpose. My life is just as fruitful as others, I just think about it differently. I live my life as a constant Halloween. If I am worried about being uncomfortable I dress the part of someone who is confident and sexy and I play that part all night/day.
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| We all wear masks in our lives, all to hide something. For this reason I cant say that I am different but that we are all different, and it is how we embrace each other that matters. |
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